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Ember light trailing over the curve of your thigh
hidden under the fold of the bed-sheet crease, the sweet
fortune-cookie divet of your hip
chasing kisses to your waist
your smile playful and teasing.
Modigliani neck smooth like a swan
silk skin in this Sunday afternoon, pale
as the paper of study books unfolded on the floor
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Rubber Nooses
Maddie snaps rubber bands to wrists
redirecting and reverberating pain from her
brain to skin to bone,
a tan rubber doctor's mallet
testing the reflexes of coping strategies instead of knees
(kill me please, please kill me, please)
2D hammer flat and golden beige
like the pancakes none of us eat
for the food challenge.
Hey doc, you, my voices, and your goal weight can go
fork yourself.
A patient steals one of my silver rings from my bedside -
I wonder if she tiptoed to me in the night and crept
away, jealous treasure tucked in the folds of her pocket gown
or twinkling dull beneath the pale white beam of the
nurse's flashlight for night checks.
Did she slip into my room mid-afternoon snack
while I was trapped at the eating-disorders table;
as much prisoner to the ritual of forced eating in a group
as the disorder slaved me to dancing its strange rhythms too.
Show the nurse my tongue: compliance pink to prove clozapine is swallowed and not
in my cheek, as it were two days ago and
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Restless spirit departs to imperfect shadow
penumbra of night sweats; salt, silk sickness
staining wallpaper red.
I eat ghosts and vanish through the walls
of  memory
treading an epitaph rewritten
recalling and mourning, wishing the past backward.
Scatter flower petals to rigor mortis feet
grip the thorns in my palm
watch scarlet spots damn me to hell.
I inhale fireflies and glow worms
fluoresce and glow in the dark.
Swallow lanterns
to my belly - a flickering candle
ebbing and flowing phantom light;
altar to loneliness.
Luminous spectre
invisible spectator to my internal world.
I eat spiderwebs and
wrap the sticky bone threads; pale spirit stitches
skeletal poltergeist fingers
to sew body back to mind and
keep it from floating away - a parachute.
If my soul wants to leave my body,
why does it keep coming back?
Parasitic host,
ghoul shrouded neath the pretence of human.
Wraith inflicting a slow degradation
before the ghostly congress of silent judges - conscience jury
jostling for
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ID Halloween 2016 :iconrosary0fsighs:Rosary0fSighs 3 4 Sylveon Gijinka - Halloween Pokemon Cosplay :iconrosary0fsighs:Rosary0fSighs 5 2 Supermoon :iconrosary0fsighs:Rosary0fSighs 13 0 Offering :iconrosary0fsighs:Rosary0fSighs 6 3 Presence :iconrosary0fsighs:Rosary0fSighs 5 0 The General :iconrosary0fsighs:Rosary0fSighs 4 0 London :iconrosary0fsighs:Rosary0fSighs 3 0 Speak :iconrosary0fsighs:Rosary0fSighs 6 1 V :iconrosary0fsighs:Rosary0fSighs 2 1 Dead Horse :iconrosary0fsighs:Rosary0fSighs 4 4 Ghost Rider :iconrosary0fsighs:Rosary0fSighs 3 0 Shakespeare's Fool :iconrosary0fsighs:Rosary0fSighs 5 0 Buddha :iconrosary0fsighs:Rosary0fSighs 4 0


Hi :) I'm Rosie.

I just graduated from Honours in psychology at university and am working part time as a mental health support worker. I'm a mental health advocate, and want to dedicate my life to helping to support and understand others living with mental illness. I live with Schizoaffective Disorder (Type I Bipolar and schizophrenia) in Australia. I love writing and reading poetry, and reading biographies and memoirs. I also love writing music and performing, photography and photo manipulation.

I'm the lyricist/singer for a band. We're called Outward Eyes. [link] :heart:

My heroes are Anne Deveson, Kay Redfield Jamison, Elyn Saks, and Carl Sagan. I admire their courage, passion, resilience, and writing. I believe that resilience, as well as compassion, empathy, emotional intuition, courage and drive are the best qualities a person can have.

I'm a street art enthusiast, I'm not a graffiti artist, but I love street art and love photographing it. I very much love derelict and decaying buildings and urban exploration.

I like records, horror and occult fiction, poetry, sushi, A Perfect Circle, Placebo, David Bowie, gloomy bear, antiques (particularly Victorian), clown dolls, and foreign or silent films.
I've been very scarce of late, but life update! 
I've started studying Masters in Psychology :dummy: Unfortunately it means a lot of travel as I no longer live close to the university, and the travel means inflaming some psychotic symptoms, but I'm managing so far :) Ecstatic being back studying what I love, and hoping to stay well enough to power through. 
We're a small bunch of students, but everyone has really diverse interest areas and ideas. There have been some fantastic discussions already. 

My UK trip with my sister: Scotland broke our hearts. Often fantasising about moving there, especially with our last heat wave here :la: 

My partner has two adorable cats, and I have one adorable bird haha. We're forever showing each other cute videos and gifs of birds and cats.

The best part of Black Sails was always Charles :pirate:

I drink so much lemonade, at this point my bloodstream is probably 80% bubbles.

Hope everyone is well! 
:heart: Xxxxxx 


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280077s Featured By Owner Apr 8, 2017  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Happy Birthday!
JOHNNYFB Featured By Owner Nov 14, 2016  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Congratulations on your graduation with honors! That is fantastic!
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